Confessions of Jersey Girl

Remember the time that I was on the phone with Doni and I booked a ticket for Chicago for the DAY AFTER TOMORROW and i’m going to actually only be in Chicago for 20 hours?!

OH MY GOD.

I’m still flipping out and it’s been over an hour since i’ve booked my flight.  I have no idea where i’m staying, I have no idea what i’m doing… just that I’ll be seeing Derek, Courtney, Jamie and Doni and hopefully everyone else I need to be seeing on my short adventure to Chi-Town.

I can’t believe i’m doing this.  I can’t believe that in less than 48 hours, i’ll be in Chicago.

Here’s to the best summer of my life.

- This afternoon via a group gchat (Did you know you could group gchat? It’s amazing.) a blogger extravaganza/safe travels and adventures Ashley/most amazing birthday i’ll ever have was planned.  Doni is flying in from Minne and my heart is swelling from the happiness.  Doni and I will be in NYC from the night of August 14 until the 16th, so if you didn’t know about this little shindig, now you do!  Come say hi to Doni, bye to Ashley and happy birthday to me!  It promises to be an UNFORGETTABLE weekend.

-I am currently the happiest i’ve been in I don’t even know how long.  I’m single.  I’m doing things I want to do on my own terms.  I don’t have to ask anyone for permission.  I’m being a little financially irresponsible and I don’t care.

-I miss all of the Cali girls.  Kerri, Katelin, Andrea, Ev’Yan, Nicole… I wish we were all closer.

-I need to book my ticket to Minneapolis to hang out with Doni and this girl.  There are not even words to describe how excited I am to finally be able to hang out with her fine ass.

-I had a happy meal for dinner.  It was nothing short of amazing.  Now, i’m blogging.  Soon I’ll be getting myself cute, then i’m heading out for drinks and a midnight premiere of Transformers.  I don’t care if it sucks, I’ve never seen the first one.  I’m all about the experience.

-I have work tomorrow.  GROSS.

-MY LIFE IS AMAZING.  Really.  I can’t believe how perfect things are right now.  Sure, there’s the ever present drama that my life wouldn’t be complete without, but i’m happy.  SO happy.

Hey everyone!  I completely forgot that my guest post was scheduled for yesterday over at Reinventing Amy!!  It’s something I’ve been meaning to post about here, so go check it out!!

I went grocery shopping the other night.  It was particularly foggy out and as I was loading up my car, two “homie” kids walked by and said this:

“Yo man, It looks like mother nature is smokin’ her a doobie!”

And then one of the two proceded to call me “shawty”.  Please explain to me WHAT exactly they expected me to say to that?  “Ay yo, how ’bout you take me for a ride in that geo prizm you got there.”

Really.  Only in Jersey.

I know, I just posted… but i’m upset right now… so i’m going to post again.  There isn’t a whole lot to say because we still don’t really know what happened, but they found my 32 year old cousin and his friend dead in a hotel room a few hours ago.   The phone just rang a little bit ago, my mom walked away and came back hysterical.  No mom should have to lose their child, I don’t care how old they are.

He has had his battles with drugs over the years.  Stints in rehab here and there, moving back home with his parents a few years ago to get clean, he even moved from Alabama to Jersey last year to get away from toxic friends.  A few months ago he moved to Florida close to his parents and I guess they had enough of his behavior so they didn’t let him stay at their house.  He had been staying at a motel for the past few weeks and today when I Aunt was on her way over to see him after work, the place was surrounded by police cars and ambulances.  They wouldn’t let her see him.  I guess in the end, it proved to strong of a pull for him.

It breaks my heart that someone could be so selfish.  It’s wrong to say that because I know that he was at a point where he had no control anymore.  I hate that my Aunt lost a son.  I hate that my mom, who watched him grow up, is devistated.  I wish I could just sit down and talk to him, get to know him a little better.  I’m sort of at a loss… I don’t really know what to even say.  I’m shocked.  You know how you sometimes just keep hoping that things will work out?  Everyone felt that way about Jason.  We just hoped that he would come around.