it’s my birthday!
August 14th, 2009 at 6:02 pm. Posted in Just Rachel.
Well, tomorrow is my birthday. And that? That’s me without a stitch of makeup on my face. It’s funny because this picture? It’s not my facebook default pic, except black and white. This one though? I didn’t edit one bit. As much as I wanted to smudge out a few blemishes, as much as I wanted to even out my skin tone… I didn’t. The more I stare at this picture the more I’m okay with my blemishes, my forehead wrinkles and my Cindy Crawford mole. It’s easier now for me to pick things out about me that I love… My green eyes, the color of my lips, my mole beauty mark.
I’m entering into my 25th year of life, that’s a quarter century folks. While it’s not old by any means, I am certainly not a child anymore. I’m old enough to stand on my own two feet. I’m old enough to make decisions and stand by them. I’m old enough to say “I remember when…”. But i’ll not too old to have sour patch kids with my wine, eat chicken fingers, watch The Little Mermaid or car dance my ass off with my best friends.
I’m old enough to be comfortable in my own skin. As a former (and depending on which day you catch me now) fat girl, I never thought i’d be able to say that. I’m comfortable with my wrinkles (the ONE that I have), i’m okay with the fact that there will always be a little dimple in my left thigh no matter how far I run. I’ve accepted the fact that i’m not one of those girls that is going to be a size two. I’m old enough to know that I need to take care of my body, eat right and excersise… even when I want to thow a tantrum like a four year old.
Being 24? It changed me. I did things in the last 365 days that I never, ever dreamed that I would do. I’ve proven to be so much stronger than I had ever given myself credit for. I’ve laughed, I’ve cried & I’ve made new friends. I’ve taken chances. I’ve been hurt. I’ve been lifted up. I am a completely different, stronger, more self assured version of myself this birthday. I’m not scared to live my life anymore.
So many of YOU have had a hand in helping me to find this person within myself. So many of you have taught me that I have so much to offer. So many of you have made me feel comfortable enough in my own skin to post a picture of me on the internet WITHOUT MAKE UP ON. Which, is INSANE.
So anyway, the point is… Here’s me completely naked(face) for Kerri. It’s something I’ve thought so long about doing, but just couldn’t bring myself to actually um, DO.
you’re gorgeous! Happy Birthday!
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