two days left.

December 4th, 2009 at 8:04 am. Posted in Just Rachel.

Surprisingly, I’m more okay than I thought I would be at this point. I’m trying as hard as I can to just KEEP MY SHIT TOGETHER. Which, is easier said than done. I got a little upset last night in the car with him, but I pulled it together. We had an awesome night last night though, we went to Pier 1 and spent $150 on absolutely nothing that we needed. We just wandered around and loaded up baskets and laughed and I forgot for a few minutes how much it sucked that I wasn’t going to see him until JUNE. (They officially extended him last night. It’s definitely til the end of June at least, but as long as July. But you know how these things work out.) He took me for a happy meal so I wouldn’t have to cook dinner, and tonight I plan on returning the favor with fillet mignon and mashed potatoes, a special request.

I’m exhausted and emotionally drained just from the anticipation of this happening. We still have to fit in a b bunch of family visits and goodbyes, we still have to get him packed. We still have to find FIVE SECONDS to spend some time together before Monday morning. I just don’t feel like doing much of anything right now except being at home and holding him close for as long as I possibly can. But, since he’s out on the base for the next two days, i’ll be here in my office killing time til sunday when we can lay in bed together all day.

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There are 12 comments to this post.
steph anne said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 8:41 am

I admire your courage & ability to go through this and stay strong for yourself and Matt. I know it helps looking at the clock every second to make the time go slow so wear a watch if you don’t. Enjoy your weekend with him!

Lauryn said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 9:12 am

Oh hun… hang in there. I’ve said goodbye to someone like that before and it’s no fun at all. I’ll be thinking about you guys! <3

Sarah said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 9:31 am

I know it’s hard, but you’re handling it really well! Also, a tip to make his time easier once he’s there: they dump all of the boy’s green drag bags in a big pile and tell them to find their’s, so I spent time while he was packing wrapping ribbon around the handles (bright colored duck tape also works well) to make it easier to find. I actually even wrote love notes on the ribbon before hand and put the note side down so it would just be between us, no other eyes looking. It’s silly, but I wanted to help him get ready without actually packing for him (too hard for me). I also have lots of care package ideas and recipes that work well when being shipped overseas (including a birthday cake in a jar if he’ll be gone for that like mine always is). If I can help in any way, feel free to reach out to me!

little miss obsessive said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 9:55 am

I agree with Steph, I admire you so much! This is a hard situation but you are dealing with it like a champ. Hang in there and enjoy your weekend together. At least while he’s gone you will have the wedding planning to keep you busy! Sending lots of hugs your way.

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Doniree said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 10:35 am

AH, my heart just breaks for you. Don’t do anything you don’t have to. Hold him for as long as you can. And when you need to break down, you know my number.

Cait said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 11:05 am

It’s unbelievable and inspiring how much courage and strength you have. My heart goes out to you two and I hope you find some time to yourselves.

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L @ my motto: sans limites said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 11:11 am

Rachel! I’m totally emo-sensitive today and started tearing up and choking on my bagel reading this post.

I hope june comes in the blink of an eye – I hope he is safe – I hope you get some good planning done – I hope you have a beautiful 2 days – I hope one day this war will get settled – I hope they retract their extension sometime during his deployment & send him home sooner.

Terra said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 1:34 pm

Hang in there Lady! You will get through this and your relationship will be that much stronger because of it!

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katelin said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 4:28 pm

aw rachel you can do it. and you’ll have those five seconds (well longer than that obviously) together and they will be awesome and amazing and wonderous and every other adjective possible. seriously sending lots of hugs your way.

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Steph said... Dec 4, 2009 @ 7:51 pm

Hang in there. Hugs, hugs, hugs.

Therapeutic Ramblings said... Dec 5, 2009 @ 1:47 pm

Hang in there!

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Emily said... Dec 6, 2009 @ 10:43 am

Although I can’t imagine what you’re going through, I do know how it feels to deal with a goodbye such as this. It’s devastating, but I admire your strength and courage to handle the situation with grace. Not an easy thing to do! The days will get easier soon enough and as long as you stay hopeful, you’ll get through it!

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