neglected.
March 5th, 2010 at 8:18 pm. Posted in Just Rachel.So, It’s been over three weeks since i’ve posted. I made a decision to step the eff away from blogging and Twitter because things just feel so… repetitive. We’re just past the half way point of this deployment and I feel like at this point, i’ve just got my sights set on getting to the point where I can jump into his arms again that nothing else matter.
I don’t want to be the girl that whines about a deployment, that is constantly posting these sad stories or can’t talk about anything except how much she misses him. I know it’ my blog and if I wanted to, I could write about all of those things, but truthfully… having it all down in writing isn’t going to make my heart hurt any less.
I have posts lined up, I can’t wait to show you guys my chicken soup recipe, but I just don’t think i’m feeling it yet. It’s weird to feel this way, sort of without my voice. I don’t know how to explain it. There has been a serious increase in nasty commenters, people that have these opinions of me, of this blog, of how I live my life… and I just think that maybe, opening myself up to that kind of criticism and living my life online for whoever googles the right set of words might not be for me anymore.
Also, I think… for the past few years, i’ve had crazy story after crazy story. My life for so long was one big ball of ridiculous and now? Now, thinks have slowed down which is a great thing for me, not so much for the old blogaroo. I just need to find my new voice, maybe. My new, grown up, life isn’t crazy anymore, take joy in the mundane voice. But I mean, how many of you want to hear that I’m sitting on my couch watching Food Network with my cat? Exactly.
I’m just taking some time to think all of these things over. I’ll figure out something, i’m sure. But, in the mean time… try not to miss me too much.
tale all the time you need. :-)
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